today, i was (probably) expelled from high school

by secret handshake

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released March 13, 2015

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Track Name: at the edge
i was at at the edge of the room
hiding my face with a veil made of flowers in bloom
when the silence was broken in two
by a man with a voice like an ankle tattoo yelling

"we will not be let down anymore
i will stand on my feet or i'll sit on the floor"
but no matter where i reside i'll ignore
every word you said to me

cause this broken ass telepathy has never made things right
it's never saved me from myself or taught me to put up a fight
it's a single edged sword with the handle pointing out of my skull
but i won't lose control i'll keep hold until i see you again"

i looked towards my feet when i saw i was standing
and realized i was the one reprimanding
himself
reprimanding himself
and next thing i knew

well i was at the edge of the ocean
with a look on my face that was little more than hopeless
when the silence was broken in two
by a council of crows placing rocks as a clue and they read

"please don't feel so down anymore
you should stand on your feet with your hands on the sword handle
handling more than you thought you ever could
because anything is possible

if you overcome these obstacles constructing your perspective
and discover that your selflessness has been so self dejected
that your cowardice and hours spent on hoping for a future
might result in nothing more than hoping"

and i look towards the waves when i knew that they were right
and realized i was the one that was putting up a fight
so i closed my eyes
laid back in the sand and tried to die

but not before i looked at you off across the waves
wondering how ill manage this and how much time i could save
if i walked to you now and i told you and i told you to be alright
cause i can guarantee that i won't see you anymore tonight
Track Name: watching
god fucking dammit

watching for your car
waiting in the rain
has never been the same
since i went insane

i've written more suicide notes than i'd care to share
but i never followed through, i never followed through
i mever followed thrgough

if i jumped every time that i saw the edge
i would've never met you
and fuck that scares me

'cause i'm rather familiar with hospital beds
but i'm much less familiar with words that i said
yet don't regret

screaming out fuck this abyss in the cracks of my psyche
they ask if you like me then answer a stern no in your place

watching for your car
waiting in the rain
has never been the same
since i went insane

since i went insane

so tell me how you feel watch me fall apart
every single time no reason or rhyme

caught inside your pull and sinking at the hull
but drowning in your love has given me enough to breathe

i'll never let you slip away from my heart
i'll never fall apart i knew it from the start
i knew it from the start

because cars litter the roads your hand fits in mine
happiness resides every single time

cars litter the roads your hand fits in mine
happiness resides every single time

*sniffle
Track Name: as long i can
well i keep my mind set on the future
keep my heart set on the past
footsteps set in single file
cops set somewhere off my ass

well i keep my mind set on the future
keep my heart set on the past
footsteps set in single file
or somewhere off the beaten path

watching through an open doorway
i approached and said hello
forgot about the social norms
and winged it to see how it'd go

luckily your light heart melted
smiled and you laughed at my attempts
at being nonchalant
and held me til i said goodbye

i knew at that very moment
yelled it to the lords above
the precise time that counted down
until i'd say i fell in love

since the very moment
in our gym class in a panicked fear
when you reached for my hand to gesture
"it's alright, calm down, my dear"

i kept my mind set on the present
kept my heart set on your eyes
footsteps set in single file
but order's such a dumb disguise

kept my mind set on the present
kept my heart safe in your hands
footsteps set in single file
loving you as long i can